WINTER IS HERE

My comment system is working now. I just had to upgrade the version, I've done that now so it should be working pretty good again. =)

Wow. A lot of thing's have changed since I last updated on here. Where do I start? Well, it's officially winter here, now. I have just gotten my own first case of the cold/flu and as of two days ago, started feeling a bit better and have begun getting over it now. Finally. I know we all dislike it, but I hate being sick! I cannot afford it, I have to work and do everything else that is required of me, to live, lol. I hope everyone else has been able to stay clear of the illnesses. I would say this weather is the perfect weather to watch more film's and do thing's like that. Sad fact, I haven't even been to the cinema since March, and that was to see The Wolfman in Sydney while I was away on holiday's. However, lately I have been feeling like going to the movies again soon and now Sex and the City 2: Carried Away is out, I cannot wait to see it! You bet I have been hanging out for it! I also want to see A Team, Prince of Persia: Sands of Time, Street Dance 3D and The Karate Kid when it comes out to Australia soon. I like Jackie Chan, especially in his comedic roles, so it should be fun! I went on a little road-trip today, it was fun, my friend & I went shopping. I got a new dvd, the blu-ray version of The Hangover: Extended Uncut. I love that film, it's hilarious, the tiger in the bathroom is so random & the quote's from the film would stay with us forever.. especially the man-purse being a satchel that even Indiana Jones has, lol. I've been really into music now too. Been listening to just about anything & everything. All the top 40 stuff that comes out, and spent a lot of time recently finding remixes to some of my favourite song's. A lot of them are dance-type tunes and lots of R&B, stuff that is fun to dance to.

Oh and in other news, I just installed all the updates for the new version of wordpress, upgraded and all ready to go now. I also renewed my domain here, I am interested in writing more entries here and blogging more often again.. I miss it, infact. And when I start getting to more of the personal stuff that's going on in my life at the moment, it makes me more inspired to blog. I may even start doing private entries and writing all about it that way. Haha, I had always thought about doing that but never got to actually setting it up, maybe this time I will. I hope I do because it would be nice to feel security when I am writing very personal journal entries here.. that I need to vent about and get off my chest. Well I am about to say it, I am single. Yep. That is my relationship status at the moment, not with my bf anymore, over the past two month's, a lot has changed.. officially. I guess we both kind of knew it was coming in the past few month's but never grasped it and did something about it, now it feel's too late and what's done is done and what's happened has happened. It was mutual, we both felt like our relationship had died down a lot, there was close to none communication anymore, we began doing a lot of thing's on our own and separately. It's sad, it is. If we both could have changed the way thing's had gone, we probably would want to go back and do that. Change the way thing's went, the direction it took, and try to mend all the broken link's. But it's the past, and you can't. Neither of us had cheated on each other (if you were thinking that), it's not that in which I'm meaning when I say we both wish we could have changed thing's about the past and the way stuff went. I actually mean the direction thing's went, the way we took thing's and solved them, or the lack of solving. The beginning of our relationship was so different to the most recent aspect's of it. Is that always the way for everyone, in their relationship's too? I thought it would be. It's strange, isn't it? Sometimes you just drift apart and lose yourselves, get caught up in your own hobbies, discontinue the effort to compromise on thing's that should probably be compromised on, and start doing with less thinking, because we get lazier and cannot be bothered anymore. Feels like the effort was gone, the spark was gone, the ability to enjoy each other's company faded away, it's very sad. We are still friend's, we still see each other every now and then, we do have the same mutual friend's, and we're keeping it that way. I'm glad we're both being very civil about it, it's helped both of us be able to move on. I guess, the only thing I can say now is that, you never know what the future hold's, and whilst not letting your past be your future, but allowing your destiny to be grown from your past, and not forgetting the memories that were made from it. That's what is important. It really is.

So. Yeah. Life is different now. I mean, doing something for 3.5yrs, then doing something that's so different, is a bit of an adjustment. I'm taking it all in my strides. I have started becoming readjusted to single life. It's not been easy either, really. At times I feel like holding back and not allowing anything to grow or move on, but I have to let it happen and see where it takes me. After all, I guess that's what life is all about. I don't want sympathy, just good listener's and real friend's. Onto one of my favourite topics; shopping!!, I have been doing a fair bit of that lately with my friend's, haha. At the moment I have about two lot's of clothes worth about $300 each, all up, on lay-away. As right now I am trying to find a car to buy so I have to be a little smarter with my money & finance's. Car looking, is it meant to be fun? Is it? Because for me, it isn't, no no no, not one bit. Everything I see that light's up my face, someone is there criticising it already & pointing out all the bad thing's about it, so I figure maybe looking at them on my own with a mechanic is the best thing I should do. And I've spent a lot of time looking too, it has not been a fast process, not at all. I guess as it is serious to me, I have been a little more picky & thoughtful about it this time. I don't want to settle for second best, if I see it and I like it, I would want to get it. But I tell ya, every tom, dick & harry has had to find it in their right to put their two cent's in on what I should or shouldn't get, it's become really annoying. I guess they're only helping, but if it's by me, for me, from me, then shouldn't 'I' like it? I'll have to continue looking and keep you guy's updated on how it all goes.

This is a pretty long blog & even a bit personal, which I don't normally do, but I felt like venting this time. I need to get more into the swing of thing's, and update often again. I miss it, as I said before. I best be off now, got a few thing's to do around the house. I have not even watched tv for the past month, or gone on Twitter much. Facebook is the only thing that I have been occupying my home-time with, the rest of the time I have not even been home. Thank god for good friend's, and company. I've been going out every few weekend's, going on road-trip's, shopping and keeping busy with work. I hope everyone has a good week ahead and enjoys the weekend too! I will blog again soon, with photo's of all the new clothes I bought. Because within a week I should have them all out. Love Jaz xxx